// Week 3//

Okay, I know I’m a little late but here’s what’s been going on in this little life of mine during week three:

Last week, I made it a point to let everyone know that I didn’t know what I was doing. And while the answers didn’t magically rain down upon me this week, I’ve taken one step forward in figuring it all out.

I have officially applied to school in New York City and will be moving there come June.

This is a huge thing for me because two years ago, I thought long and hard about packing up and moving back to my favorite city. But there was this boy, and he was everything to me. So, I followed him to college and ended up not really enjoying myself since the only reason I was there was for a boy (and we even ended up breaking up for semester. Go figure, right?)

Anyway, even after I decided to leave that school, a lot of things happened that kept me here in ATX and now that 2013 has ended and the shit has ended, I don’t have all too much keeping me here. Eric is gone and my best friend is moving back home, and everyone else has already moved on. So, why am I here?

"No reason to stay is a good reason to go."

So, come June, this girl, her camera, and her blog will be packing up and moving to the Big Apple!

Also, in other big/cool news!

I will be going to Europe by myself this summer!

I’ll be traveling to London, Paris, and Rome and I am so so so excited about it.

More about that later.

And okay, weekly recap:

How are your resolutions going?

Great, actually!

Have you crossed anything off your 20 Before 20 list?

Unfortunately, no.

What else have you been doing?

Me and my friends saw Frozen. Which, by the way, is the most amazing Disney movie I have seen in a really long time. If you haven’t seen it yet, GO IMMEDIATELY.

What are you looking forward to?

Quitting my job and moving to NYC!

// Week 2//

Wow. Two weeks down already? I can’t believe it.

Before I get to the recap of this last week, allow me to briefly discuss a common misconception amongst my friends:

I DO NOT KNOW WHAT THE HELL I’M DOING WITH MY LIFE.

Okay, friends? I have no clue! None whatsoever. 

And you know what, for the first time ever, I’m starting to realize that THAT’S OKAY.

But I do have expectations. I have goals. And I have dreams. A lot of them. 

Having big dreams is a good thing and I think it’s much more important to have goals than to have every point of your life out on a map. 

(Note to all the parental units out there!!!!)

Currently, I’m stuck here in boring central Texas but I know that someday soon I’ll have my dream job working in one of the world’s largest museums… Half the fun is in the adventure of getting there!

I had a friend recently tell me that he was surprised I had so many big dreams because he didn’t have any for himself because he didn’t think he was going to be alive so long. I’m not saying I haven’t struggled, but I know that one thing that keeps me here is having something to look forward to!

So, have goals. Have dreams. And go out and achieve them!

Okay? Okay!

Alright. Sorry. I’m off my soap box now… On to my weekly recap:

How are your resolutions going?

*takes hand out of the last and only Cheeto bag of the year* Next question please?

Have you crossed anything off your 20 Before 20 list?

Unfortunately, no. I haven’t finished my book, but I’m working on it!

What else have you been doing?

Literally dying from cedar fever… The things in the central Texas air are killing me.

What are you looking forward to?

Going hiking this weekend with my best friend!

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HAVE FUN!

xo, lanabelle

// Week 1//

Today is January 8th, which means the first week of 2014 is over! Was it as good for you as it was for me?

I hope so.

Okay, so let’s review week one.

How are your resolutions going?

Ehhhh. I’ve been saving money, waking up earlier, learning new things, and keeping up with current events. As for everything else… Lucky for me, I’ve got 51 more weeks.

Have you crossed anything off your 20 Before 20 list?

Yes!! I dyed my hair. It’s now partially blue/green!

What else have you been doing?

I hung out with a good friend I haven’t seen in a while, I went with Eric’s family to place the temporary marker on his grave (a beautiful marble piece that will stay until we get the real one in about a month or so), and I’ve been working my butt off and even got a raise (a small one, but a raise nonetheless. not to mention i’ve only been working there since october!)

What are you looking forward to?

My best friend is finally home from winter break and I can’t wait to see that asshole!

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Cheers to the first week of 2014.

May the odds be ever in my favor for the rest of it.

xo lanabelle

// 20 Things I Want To Do Before I’m 20//

So, December 2, 2014 will be my TWENTIETH BIRTHDAY. I seriously can’t even believe I’m 11 months away from being 20. 

If that isn’t a big enough slap in the face that I literally haven’t done anything with my life, then I don’t know what will be.

So, adding to my list of goals/resolutions for 2014, here are the 20 things I want to do before I’m 20.

I’ll bold and cross them off as they are completed!

1) Run around the city, stay up all night, and watch the sun rise (Thanks for this idea, Ev!)

2) Go to a music festival

3) Go to a huge concert

4) Finish writing my book!

5) Take a road trip

6) Go on a roller coaster

7) Go to an amusement park with my best friends

8) Ride a motorcycle

9) Dye my hair  (January 4)

10) Learn to snowboard

11) Sing a duet with a friend

12) Make a music video

13) Prank someone (and get it on video for the internet, of course)

14) Make my YouTube channel

15) Run a 5K

16) Do a city-wide scavenger hunt

17) Finally learn how to cook a dish that doesn’t involve pasta

18) Go on a legitimate camping trip

19) Meet some of my favorite YouTubers

20) Write and direct a short film!

Well, there ya go! There’s my bucket list.  Let’s finish my teenage years strong.

Here’s to hoping I can complete all of these things!

xo lanabellee

// 13 Best Things About 2013//

Since I went through my 14 goals/resolutions for 2014 yesterday, I figured it was only fair to discuss the top 13 things that happened in 2013. As I mentioned, 2013 was potentially the worst year of my life, but in my effort to make 2014 great, I will focus on the good. (At some point, I may or may not discuss the bad parts, but for now…)

So, here they are. The 13 Best Things About 2013:

1. Finished My First Year Of Real College:
Not much happened from January-April since I was in school and doing nothing but eating Ramen noddles and studying for tests, so we’ll start here with May and finishing my first year of college at the University of North Texas. This is here for obvious reasons. Who wouldn’t be thrilled to finish their first year of college?

2. Got My License:
I was scared of getting hit, but the absolute horror of being a college student and not being able to go where I want, when I want, greatly outweighed the small fear of a fender-bender. So, I got off my ass and went down to the DPS (with two friends who failed their drivers tests the first time around) and passed my test with (semi) flying colors.

3. Made New Friends:
I’ll admit I didn’t really make any efforts to make friends at UNT. I was more concerned with studying and I really enjoyed the company of my roommate, so I guess it kind of figures that I’d find two of my three current best friends in my hometown. Christopher and Matt are two of the best friends I’ve ever had and I couldn’t be luckier to have them in my life. Who knows why we weren’t friends when I was in high school, but I’m excited to watch them graduate and see what the future holds for them.

4. Getting Back Together With My High School Sweetheart:
If you know Eric and I, you’d know we were the “best of times, worst of times” couple. Sure, I got a kick out of “We Are Never Ever Ever Getting Back Together” as much as the next pissed off ex-girlfriend, but truth is, I loved the guy more than I would have liked to admit. We were young when we met and started dating (I had just turned 15) but as time went on, we didn’t really grow up. Both of us made dumb, rookie mistakes that tore us apart during our first year of college. However, after the year ended, we did talk about it and getting back together with him was the best decision I ever made. I got to be by his side through some really tough times and I’m glad that he had a hand to hold for it (but I’m really glad that it was mine!)

5. Deciding To Take The Year Off:
Most people take their “gap year” right after high school, but I was so caught up with following my boyfriend to college and doing what my parents wanted that I didn’t ever take a moment for myself. I passed my first year of college just fine, but I didn’t enjoy it as much as I thought I would, or at all really… Deciding to take the next year (this current school year) off to work and take care of more important things than algebra was probably one of the best decisions I ever made. Now I can’t wait to go back to school this upcoming fall! 

6. Nikki’s 70th Birthday:
At age 8, I auditioned for my first play and by some miracle landed a singing and speaking role (I played Pepper in the musical Annie) After nearly 10 years of summer camps, voice lessons, acting classes, dance class, tech work, and many more main stage productions, those people became family. And that theatre became home. So, that’s why when the woman who had been a teacher, a friend, a mentor, and fellow castmate to all of us turned 70, people came from all over to celebrate her. It was so nice to be surrounded by my theatre family once more and reminisce and laugh and celebrate the woman who taught me everything I know about theatre.

7. Colorado:
I’ve spent a large portion of my life traveling back and forth from Texas to New York and New York to Texas, but while I had gone on a few vacations here and there, it hadn’t been for a very long time. So, my mom flew down from New York and the two of us went to Colorado for a week. Colorado is one of the most beautiful places I have EVER been. While we were there, we attended the annual Shakespeare festival, rode horses, sat on the beach in Grand Lake, shopped, and of course, climbed the Rocky Mountains!

8. First Apartment:
Once I decided to take a year off school, I knew I would have to get an apartment, or I’d be stuck living under my father’s roof… So, shortly after returning from Colorado, I moved into my first apartment! No, it’s not as glamorous as I expected, but it is SO much fun living on my own and not having any rules!

9. Got A Great Job:
Since this apartment isn’t going to pay for itself, and my parents certainly aren’t going to pay for it, I had to get a better job than 20 hours a week at Best Buy. Not that I didn’t love my bosses and coworkers there, but it wasn’t going to pay the bills. Luckily for me, just shortly after I started looking for a better paying job, a woman from a large company contacted me and asked me to interview after seeing my resume on a job board. Two weeks later, I was a full time employee working for a great business and making more than enough money to pay my bills and still be able to eat!

10. Rekindled Friendship:
I had a lot of friends in high school and there were a couple that faded away due to stupid drama and all that jazz. Under a really shitty circumstance, one of those friendships was brought back and I’m really glad that it did. Evelyn and I had some really great times for the years that we were friends and a stupid, petty thing came between us our senior year and I’m more than a little upset that we stopped being friends for so long. But I do love her very much and she’s one of the best friends I’ve ever had and I’m so lucky to have her back in my life.

11. Return Of My Favorite Doctor:
I know this is SOOOOO nerdy of me, but I am a HUGE Doctor Who fan. Classic Who and New Who alike. So, when I found out David Tennant was gracing our screens once more as The Doctor, I kind of lost my shit… Getting to see My Doctor again was amazing, even though his exit (damn you, Steven Moffat!!!!) broke my heart all over again, I’m really glad the 50th Anniversary of Doctor Who was made even more special and mind-blowing by having three Doctors come together so Gallifrey would fall no more.

12. New York For Thanksgiving:
Spending Thanksgiving in New York means family (which was plus a new baby this year!), food (duh!), cold weather, and of course, Broadway! So, in addition to the delicious homemade food I was consuming for four days, I got to spend part of Hanukkah (yay, presents!) and also my birthday (yay, more presents!) with my family for the first time in years. This also means I was able to see a couple Broadway shows. This year it was Macbeth (starring Ethan Hawke, Vivian Beaumont Theatre, Lincoln Center), Romeo and Juliet (with Orlando Bloom, Richard Rodgers Theatre), and Beautiful: The Carole King Story (Stephen Sondheim Theatre) – all of which were absolutely amazing. Especially the Carole King Story. Just wow. 

13. Getting Rid Of The Most Toxic Person In My Life:
This was a long time coming and the last super-important thing that I did in 2013. I won’t deny that I had been a friend to this person for many years prior to my ending our friendship. However, in the year leading up to the end, she was selfish, rude, hypocritical, self-centered, and unkind. This is not to say that she was not, at one point, a very good friend to me. But I was sick of playing her in her “competition” and she treated me poorly both as a friend and as a human being. I don’t regret the years that we were friends, though. I stuck by her through a whole lot and I was always the best kind of a friend to her but I did not ever receive the same treatment in return. I never felt that she cared half as much about my problems as she did her own. The world always had to spin around her, no matter what. Seems as if no one ever taught her the “Golden Rule,” and for that I had to say goodbye and put myself first for once. And I couldn’t be happier that I did. (Sorry not sorry…)

Well, there you go: The top 13 things that happened in my life in 2013.

Yes, there were a lot of other things that happened. But these were by far the best, most interesting, and most memorable.

Xo lanabelle 

// 14 Things I Want To Do In 2014//

As what could possibly be the worst year of my life came to a close,
I decided that 2014 would have be something completely different.

These are the 14 resolutions I’ve made for this new year:

1. DO MORE!
Don’t get me wrong, I’m all for the days of messy buns, pjs, and Netflix, but it’s starting to become a bad habit. My goal for 2014 is to do more. More having fun, more spending time with friends and family, more volunteering, more everything. Be the change you want to see in the world, right?

2. Save Money
Honesty hour: I’m the worst with money. Absolutely terrible. If there’s a sale (and even if there’s not) I’m bursting through the door of almost any shop to get something new. I will forever buy all the things I don’t really need but will make any excuse to have anyway. This year, I’m going to stop shopping and start saving. It’ll be hard not having those new sweaters that just hit the rack, but I’ll be much better off in the long run.

3. Read (At Least) One New Book Every Month
If you know anything about me, you know I love books (Hello, I want to be a Librarian!) But as I mentioned earlier, Netflix has gone from guilty pleasure to bad habit. Time to get back into reading stories instead of watching them.

4. Work Out (At Least) Twice A Week
Yeah, I know I sound like every other person in the world on New Years. But it’s true. I need to work out more. I go through periods of time where I want to be in the gym every day, to periods of time where I’d rather have teeth pulled than run on the treadmill. So, in my efforts to “Do More” this year, getting my lazy butt to the gym at least twice a week will be one of them.

5. Eat Healthier
Gone are the days of chips and ice cream for breakfast. I think at the age of 19, I should take a little responsibility for the things going into my body. So, goodbye junk food, hello fruits and veggies.

6. Start Cooking, Stop Microwaving
I am the poster child for laziness. I’m hungry pretty much 24/7 but if it’s going to take more than 2 minutes to cook, chances are I won’t even bother. I live off canned soup and Chef Boyardee (spoken like a true college kid) but since I’m trying to make a new me by going to the gym and eating healthier, the amount of canned food I consume is going to have to be a lot less…

7. Wake Up Earlier
Again, speaking as the reigning Queen of Laziness, if I do not have to wake up prior to 10am, I will not. My biggest thing for 2014 is to “Do More” and I can’t do more from my bed.  Waking up earlier will allow me more hours in the day to run errands, do homework, play outside, read a book, and so much more. The possibilities are endless if I stop wasting hours by laying in bed.

8. Write In This Blog Once A Week!
This will be a tough one. Not many exciting things happen in this little life of mine, but I will do my best to document my progress (and my failures) in this list of things I want to do/accomplish this year. (Note: I’ll probably forget to write or nothing will be happening to write about… Sorry in advance, everyone)

9. Vlog
I am a YouTube fanatic. I’ll never be like the Queen Tyler Oakley, or my favorite YouTuber, Grace Helbig (itsGrace), but in addition to writing about my 2014 resolutions, I want to document them for all of the interweb to see. (And partly because I should have video proof I did all these things!)

10. Learn How To Play The Piano
I took piano lessons at the age of 12 for one summer but I was much more interested in singing than I was accompanying. However, I now know the piano is a very crucial part of the music world and I am determined to know how to play it well by the end of the year (even though my hand-eye coordination is heinous and it will be a trip)

11. Learn Something New Everyday
In addition to learning how to play the piano, I also want to expand my range of knowledge about everything. Whether it be learning something as trivial what the hell that thing on the end of shoelaces is called (which is an ‘aglet,’ thank you, Phineas and Ferb) or something as big as understanding quantum physics, I want to learn at least one new thing every single day.

12. Keep Up With Current Events
If there’s one thing I hate, it’s people who bandwagon arguments because of things they heard from someone who heard something from someone else and so on… I’ll be honest and say that most things in the news don’t interest me, but that doesn’t mean they don’t impact my daily life and the world I live in. The older I get, the more important it is for me to be “in-the-know” with everything news related.

13. Travel Somewhere New
Only having received my license 7 months ago, I haven’t had the opportunity to travel anywhere exciting. Whether it be via car, train, plane, or bus, I want to go somewhere I’ve never been before. And I don’t mean a day-trip to College Station… I mean, the Seattle Space Needle. Or the Grand Canyon. Or Yellowstone National Park. Or maybe even London. Who knows. Since, contrary to Texan belief, the world is bigger than this state and want to explore the rest of it.

And last but certainly not least,

14. Be Less Hard On Myself
I’ll kick myself in the butt for just about anything. But while I’m starting to take the rest of the world a little more seriously by saving money, eating healthier, learning new things, and keeping up with current events. I need to start taking myself a little less seriously and live a little. Life is short and no one knows that better than me, so why don’t I live it? It’s time to stop sweating the small stuff and taking the life I’ve been given into my own hands for the first time. This year is all about me and no one else.

Are you ready 2014? Because I’m ready for you.

xo lanabelle

Lana. 19. ATX.

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